The State of Things

My toothpicks are running thin.
My bicycle tires are flattening.
My iPod screen scratches are increasing.


I can't really remember the last time I've been consistently "okay" for an entire day.
Though these past weeks have been getting better.
I've focused more on self-improvement than on trying to understand things.
By doing this I've started to understand myself, inadvertently.
Things are making sense.

Aw Dude.

Yesterday was an adventure.

That's a pretty lame and easy way to say it, but it was a long ass night.

Banhs to start off the day-

No I'm not going to write down my entire saturday.

I just felt important because I hanged out with hoodrats and they let me be the guy who holds the weed till it was needed.

In a somewhat unrelated topic.

I wish people didn't lie to me.

Or at least admit they did afterward.

It would just be nice.

I didn't feel well yesterday, and today just feels weird.

I wonder how cool I would be if I wasn't lazy.

I'm okay.

My prayers have been answered and now I am mostly unaffected by any emotional event.

My mother admitted her drug problem to me in my sister's room.

My sister got in a skiing accident, breaking 3 vertebrae and a few ribs.

My father is driving himself crazy.

I didn't feel much from any of these things.

I wouldn't think that I would regret my wish to be a rock lobster, but I do.

I couldn't deal with emotion during that time.

I can't imagine my current situation when people ask me how I am.