flylo

where will i go

i can't trust myself to think straight

there is too many thoughts and feelings.

maybe if i sober up.

and just fly

ill land some place

some place that doesnt make my head feel like a box or my arms feel like numb snakes

and my feet are no longer cold.

crapa

I can only have 1 of u in my life.

sorry.

I don't feel sorry for you.

I don't feel sorry for myself.

I feel sorry for the time we had.

goodnight

my online dating site said i was hot in a recent email and informed me id be matched up with more other "attractive" users.

I looked at my new matches and the people were still pretty dreary, but then I looked at my passive aggressive asshole profile dick page and gave all the nice women FIVE STARS and logged off my email and went to bed for exactly eight hours.

MAYO

does this count as a journal? am I wrong about who I am?

am I really doug?

I always thought of myself as max, from the goofy movie.

I could...

im trying to write something now i guess its a poem

and i just opened a new text edit file

(because i don't have any word processor,

i was too lazy to download if after my computer got fixed)

well i opened this new file to complain to myself about

trying to fix this one word thats not really important

...WOW the entire school with my geeky and lovable antics,

all while being bogged down by my loving and dorky father.

I opened another text edit because i think its dumb

that i opened the 2nd one in the first place.

I guess im actually working on it *writing* for once,

so its better than nothing.

we go on trips together, fishing and to concerts.

and we learn something in the end and i get a girl.

but im just doug with a journal.

If being doug is a bad thing, than i really am spoiled.

three years ago today

my heads falling apart.

i guess thats a normal part of life.

and today just happens to be my day.

the zoo story

If i asked you if youve ever read who's afraid of virginia woolf? would i put another question mark at the end?

or maybe it would just seem like im trying to bother you with the question.

WELL HAVE YOU??

I've never asked anyone this question and I dont think i ever will because i do not care.

i've never read the play myself and I dont plan on it.

i just thought i should ask.

adding machine

when i work i add up numbers.

i'll do it all day

just for that dollar.

2 plus negative 2 equals

zero.

i'll go now.

sleep will rest me.

when i sleep i add up sheep.