The Man in Me

guess im ready to start growing up.

in a weird, existential, out of body expierence today, i saw how different i am now then 10th grade me.

at first this was one of the most depressing moments of my life, but now i think that it was just a moment. and thats whats important.

and as i sit here each song brings more moments, connecting the sad, happy, and neutral memories of the past.

These Days

haha its almost all over.

im not back there any more.

I'm not passing out in front of the TV during luke wilson's attempted suicide in The Royal Tenenbaums.

I'm watching it. And realizing that's where i am.

But I'm not in love with anyone and I never have been.

Except for maybe.

adventure time.

I seem to return more and more to childhood.


free hair cuts in the kitchen.
trading pokemon for fun.
missing cartoon network episodes.
being cared for when you're hurt.
excited about the donuts there are.
and dreaming about what the future can be.


These thoughts won't last long. as we all fade.

Stress

This is another poem i wrote at a party.

But this time i was outside and alone.

Why do you do this? The cold strikes you.

Feels like what you remember. A thought of yours will remain forever.

You do not deserve this. Make a change for truth and hope. I love you.

My Girls

I wrote this poem at a party while on the floor surrounded by attractive people.

Messes to be made.

Love to be found.

Pie to be eaten.

Hair products are acceptable.

Pyscho Killer

Sometimes life fights you.
But I love you still.
The lost ways of mind control.
The deeds of man,
Simplicity is key with your emotions.

Father and Son

Time really is winding down.

I keep saying "i want to get out of heeeerrrreeee" to most people i see.

But I know thats not true.

I don't think im more afraid than everyone else, or less.

I just dont want to regret more things.

And i dont want to look more like a fool to females.