Wave of Mutilation

I've had a good week.

My sleep pattern has been terrible.

I got a cavity.

I'm disappointed in myself.

I'd never thought I'd see this all happening.

I might wear a flannel shirt, despite the heat.

The Trees

Last night, I mostly remember;

Fighting Broso.

Thinking it was christmas.

Reciting this.

Cursing.

Being sneaky.

Everyone thinks I'm a funny partier.

I can't help but agree.

Turn My Brain Off

Yesterday was nice.

Weekly Banh's with Le Whif and T-Pain.

We sat in a field after, that was nice, with locopops.

I called my GSE roommate when I was with them.

It was funny and they were laughing and he was cool.

I was with Nick and Chas afterwards, we did our usual stream of events.

Watched the Juggernaut video, played videogames, and held each other; what.

Kind of ready for summer, but at the same time I'm enjoying most things now.

This week has been stressful though.

I think I'm grinding my teeth more when I sleep.

Bella Notte

My mind's scattered.

I don't know if I'm overwhelmed or just confused.

I feel like I'm missing a lot of opportunities.

I can't keep up.

I think I'm worrying about things that aren't even there.

But I would like them to be.

The Hustle

I have bruise on my forehead.

It's from playing soccer, which I don't really play.

But I wanted to be with people on saturday so I did.

I don't have confidence, or maybe I don't know what it really is.

I'm ready for governor's school.

I'm ready for some-thing/one new.

I'm not ready for rejection.

Soulkid

My mind has been wandering. 

It's been a long week.

I went out to my backyard today because I was content.

I was listening to rap music, a nice song about broken hearts.

I saw a bird's nest on the ground, then I saw the broken robin eggs.

I don't think I have to explain the sadness I felt.

Ooh La La

Today wasn't typical.

I was energized in the morning, and, for lack of a better word, depressed at the end.

I thought I was content socially, but I had a little scene with two of my friends today.

It was about something stupid and was entirely my fault.

I don't know any more.

Today at lunch I was talking to Jillian, and I finally realized I too wanted to leave Durham and travel.

I never understood why she felt the need too, but now it's as if I've always had the dream of leaving.

I don't think it's because of school ending. I think I'm finally done with everything.

Back on the first subject of friends.

I don't understand girls or myself; this is not a good a combination.